Vertigo

Have spent the last couple of days, crumpled on the couch, dizzy, drowsy and sick.
Vertigo is horrible, it's like being drunk without actually drinking!
Try climbing the stairs. It's a veritable rollercoaster ride! But not as fun.
Hopefully today, I might dare to take the chance, and wash my greasy mop, without falling head first into the bathtub.
Wish me luck.

I'm always full of lame promises!

What good am I?
Chapter 14 of my book commences, last time I spoke of it, I was on chapter 9, but that was a while ago.
To say I'm easily distracted, well... that's putting it mildly! It's just that, I find everyday trivialities off-putting, to the point where the day vanishes, and I have nothing to show for it. I'm a lost cause to everything mundane, the washing up, cooking dinner, petting the cat, normality to most, but to me a curse.
I have to strive toward hope that one day,  things will just fall into place all by themselves, and the daily binds of life will allow me the freedom to accomplish my end goal.  

"GOD" Has it really been that long!!!!!

Well no wonder no ones visited my blog (one can only hope), I can't believe it's been nearly a year since I've last updated it!
I do have pleanty of excuses though, but perhaps too many to mention - wouldn't want to bore any of you too much. But there is one really big excuse and that is ( drumroll please) I've been writing my book (sighs with pride).

Ok, so I've only managed 9 chapters so far, but that's a massive thing for someone who normally only writes poetry, and 100+ words are so much easier to write than say the 50,000+ I've written so far.

I will say however with hand on heart, that I will not abandon my duties from now on. I will make time to commence my writings on this blog, and I can only apologise for my inept lack of interest.

So best foot forward and onwards and upwards, and all those other insane metaphors on life!

See you soon.

Lazy Days!

Well I've spent the past two days totally absorbed in Facebook - okay I haven't been very well, and losing myself in trivial things is always the best medicine. I've gained some new friends, and some of my apps are coming along nicely, the only problem - I've let my book slide, and that is unforgivable! But then... I have had fun, even though my damn laptop kept crashing!

As to the book, well I need to get to Cambridge for research material, and trying to convince my husband, is like trying to get a toddler to hand over their beloved dummie! But I will not give up.

I have noticed lately that my body is getting slightly bigger again, I haven't been exercising, and the damn menopause is causing havoc with my hormones, making me crave all the wrong things, I honestly can't help myself, and no matter how hard I try, those cakes just keep winning! My poor husband has been to hell and back manoeuvring around the mood swings, and being totally receptive to each one - good or bad - although there have been more bad than good. I consider myself very lucky, because believe me I can be like a monster ready to rip limbs off the closest victim, and the next day I can be so nice it's disgusting. I think my best option is to be sent on holiday somewhere for the next - oh I think 5 years, but where there aren't a lot of people to dismember, but reality tells me that's not going to happen, so I'll just have to grin and bear it, and my husband of course.

Friendship

Hello there, had a lazy day yesterday, well apart from cooking dinner and washing and wiping-up! So not really much to tell, so I thought I'd share a poem with you that I wrote for a very dear friend. Hope you like it.

Friendship comes to those that it accept it,

some may catch the briefest glimpse

but never know the true meaning.

It is not anticipated nor deserving,

or scorned upon by those who do not understand.

Instead it is like a flower that blooms,

slowly unfolding its delicate petals

to reveal the beauty that lies within.

It is an unknown force that guides not leads,

shining its light to cast out the darkness,

an essence of purity and thoughtfulness

that listens when nobody else can hear.

The anchor that braces you against the storm,

when the waves of life come crashing down.

It is the first star on which you make your first wish,

when all thoughts of hope are all but gone,

they are the arms that will carry you

if your burdens are too heavy to bear,

and it is the greatest gift of kindness

that is always given and never expected.

Such a wonderous thing this is to behold,

to be bestowed with warmth and compassion

that above all, is both honest and true.

For I am one of the lucky ones,

to have been offered this hand of kinship,

and I feel honoured for the fact that I know you,

my guiding light, my evening star, my friend.

I wrote this to a special friend who was there for me during my dark times, who                     understood my troubles and helped to guide me through the hurt and pain that I was             suffering at that time. We all have friends, but some of those stand out from the others, and  it's a shame that so many get forgotten along the way, but there are always one or two        who will be there no matter what, and she is one of those. So I dedicate todays entry to        Sonia, my very special and best friend.                                                                                               

Oh Saturdays.....!

Well it's football season again, and I've been relegated to the back seats in favour of the glorious game, (as my husband calls it) not that I really mind, as I get to surf the net and catch up on things without the usual sighing of discontent! I can now class this as 'my time' and get away with it.

Yesterday was a wash-out and worst of all I lost my broadband for the day, the shakes set in and I was totally lost, panicking as to what to do with my spare time, but really vexed with my supplier as they claim to be the best in the country! Yeah right! It wasn't the first time and I doubt if it will be the last, but lucky for me my husband is changing providers and then (hopefully, fingers crossed) everything should be a lot better, just two more months to wait before the contract finishes.

Managed to catch up with friends we haven't seen for a year, bad I know, but we've all been there getting caught up in our own lives and forgetting people along the way. We had a good time reminiscing on last years holiday to Cuba, where my husband and I celebrated our 25th Wedding Anniversary and re-newed our vows. It was probably the best holiday we've had, well apart from Malaysia that was out of this world, but for friendly people then you can't beat Cuba, it was the third time and we hope to be going back next year, we're not normally the sort to repeat the same place, but we fell in love with the country and the people, but no fear we will still trek to other places, as we love to see the world, best to do it while we still can!

Well I'm off for today, want to get a few rounds of games in before the old man starts talking about tea! Sad I know, but I do love a good game!

Oh my!!

Well I fell asleep on the couch again last night! I have a newly re-decorated and re-furbished room upstairs, but still I can't always seem to stay awake long enough to make it up the stairs! I must make a mental note to myself "don't snuggle down!" I know it won't work however, I've done it too many times before, but it's fine as I never wake with a stiff back or anything of that nature, I could fall asleep on a clothes line!

Changing the subject completely, I've been confused by a recent new advert on the telly, plugging a new automatic soap dispenser. Now either I'm completely stupid, (well perhaps I am a little bit) or they're trying to take our money under a misconception? The idea behind it is that you don't have to touch it with your germ laden hands, after performing those dirty jobs, good idea I thought and told my husband so, but when I actually got to thinking about it I realised that I had been duped! Come on you see where I'm going with this, can't you! Ok for those of you who don't let me explain.

1. I've just handled a fresh chicken, so my hands are nicely covered in bacteria.
2. I need to wash them before doing anything else.
3. I go to my trusty soap pump, and push down on the plunger with my dirty hand, (this is where the new product is supposed to come in.)
4. I turn on the tap with my other dirty hand, spreading the bacteria (doesn't matter if the soap was dispensed automatically or not.)
5. Then I proceed to wash my hands as I would do normally.

So whether I'm using the new product or not, I'm still going to be washing the germs off my hands, so it doesn't matter if I use my old soap pump! The real problem is the kitchen tap, where those millions of nasty bacteria are multiplying, staging a takeover of my kitchen sink! Sorry, got a little carried away, that's where the kitchen cleaner comes in, but I bet it won't be long before someone comes up with a new gadget to sell to us to combat this problem! And I'll be duped again, well for a short time at least.

My second day of bloggin' and it still feels all shiny and new, I must say that I was a little apprehensive at first, not knowing what to write about and whether anyone will actually read my entries, this made me even more anxious, then I thought to myself, "this is for me, a place to voice my opinions," so whether anyone reads it or not, well that's fine, I'm not going to run away and crumble in a heap somewhere, (although.... that could quite possibly happen) no I will stay resolute, and carry on with a 'british stiff upper lip' and just do what I've gotta do. I will not waiver if my follower figure stays at 0, I will stand proud and carry on the fight, (with my mighty keyboard) for I am an Amazon warrior! No I'm not actually, sorry but yet again I got swept away with my ramblings, and I tend to do that quite a bit, perhaps it's time for another cup of tea - calm myself down, but no fear, you haven't gotten rid of me yet - I'll be back tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that, oh you get the idea!